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Sunday 23 March 2014

19th nervous breakdown

Alright

So its T- 24 hours until I install this show.
It's T-3hours until I unpack my mystery experiment kiln.
And its T-0 until I need a coffee to make it all seem do-able.

Maybe that simple fact - that coffee can influence my perception of scheduled tasks- is contributing to the view that I too am a mystery experiment, a collection of chemicals reacting to chemicals.
Yeah that's a big maybe because it implies I dont have control over my decisions or enthusiasm and only the pseudo-perception of control. 

But is that not what drugs prove !?

I want to believe that I am responsible for my ideas and general 'ness.... perhaps.my responsibility begins with mouth and what I eat, before what I think. but the decisions that lead to the 'eat' is that of the thought so each influences the other. and thats how vicious eating circles begin.